Shoot me noooowwwww! I'm in pain. Menstrual pain. I don't care who knows it right about now. It's a warning not to get on my nerves lol. Or I'll rip your head off lmao!
Omg. But seriously. Rip out my uterus, I'm sure it'd be a lot less painful then what I'm feeling now haha. JUST KIDDING. But I took some Ibuprofen and it's not working >:\
I can't concentrate on my homework like this :(
And the party should be starting soon. Uh-oh. I'm screwed. I screwed myself...
Hey! Last night I dreamed about going back to school. I walked all the way around and went up the other stairwell just to avoid seeing Goofy while walking up the cafeteria stairs. I went to sit at a different table in the senior caf because the junior tables on the other side were occupied by different college displays (I wonder why I dreamed about that, hmmm...). There was a huge display for the BC recruiters (again, I wonder why....). So I went over to sit with my Haitian friends haha. And I sat down but all of a sudden the person I was sitting behind turned around... and it was Goofy. I swear he wasn't there before lol. So I said hi, but he kept staring at me giving me that stupid look. So I just said what. Then the person sitting next to him turned around. And it was Ruth! So I gave her a hug and asked her how college life was (I saw Hampster behind her at another table mouthing the questions for me to ask, I don't know why). She told me that she was recruiting for her school... and then I woke up. Just thought I'd put that in there. Since I don't have dreams often and when I do have dreams, they don't usually have people I know in them :)
Anywho, that's not all I wanted to talk about. I wanted to say that this spring I'm going to be wearing a lot more skirts. Skirts are pretty. And with my $25 gift card from H&M I can definitely get a cute one. The only problem is that I feel like pretty much everything in that store is meant to be worn with leggings... but I don't own any. So I could either get a skirt and wear it with stockings or spandex shorts ;) or just find a skirt that's a decent length. We'll see. Their clothes are cute, but I feel like I can't just leave that place with one article of clothing. I have to get an entire outfit lol.
So, in summary, I feel like scratching someone's eyes out and less jeans and more skirts this spring and summer. Yay! lol :)
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Hi?
So since I'm going to be up for a while doing homework, I might as well update my blog. It was getting a little dusty haha. So this past week was... a lot. I had fun hanging out with my friends and family. The movies, laser tag, Bertucci's, shoe shopping, Taboo, bowling, the mall. It was great. But at the end of each day that dreading feeling came crawling back. I procrastinated, as usual. I always say that I'll get stuff done, that I'll start over fresh, but I never do. It's always the same. I gotta get it together! This is junior year. I'm supposed to be at my academic peak! Instead, it feels like this is my worst year yet.
I spent a good chunk of my vacation making gifts for other people. I don't know why. I could've been starting my Latin project or researching for my History presentation or typing my extra credit paper for Chemistry or catching up on English, but I didn't. Somehow making other people happy is valued more than getting good grades or doing my work on time. I don't know. It doesn't even make sense to me anymore.
Right now, I feel like a chubby little kid is sitting on my chest. Not like I can't breath, but like I have a heavy heart. Which is odd because I'm not sad. Maybe it's just that dreading feeling coming back again.
I was looking through colleges earlier and I realized that the two colleges that I really like are both Ivy Leagues. And that worried me. I have no idea what my GPA is right now and I'm scared to find out. I thought I was smart. SCRATCH THAT. I know I'm smart, but at certain times (like now, past midnight still trying to do work) it's not apparent even to me. So in summary, my vacations are always good then bad. Fun, then I beat myself up for not doing work earlier.
And The Script is on the radio now. On Kiss 108. I love that band! But if Kiss ruins it by overplaying them, I think I'm gonna hafta beat someone up.
Ugh. Well, I better get reading. Before my dad comes home from work and adds more days to my "punishment". Before my Grandma's 82nd birthday party tomorrow (thanks mom for not telling me it was gonna be at our house). Before I have a mental breakdown. Before I get off topic and start thinking about Goofy. Before I really feel the effects of a heavy heart. Before I go eat some cold pizza in the kitchen... *NOM NOM NOM*
Too late... :)
I spent a good chunk of my vacation making gifts for other people. I don't know why. I could've been starting my Latin project or researching for my History presentation or typing my extra credit paper for Chemistry or catching up on English, but I didn't. Somehow making other people happy is valued more than getting good grades or doing my work on time. I don't know. It doesn't even make sense to me anymore.
Right now, I feel like a chubby little kid is sitting on my chest. Not like I can't breath, but like I have a heavy heart. Which is odd because I'm not sad. Maybe it's just that dreading feeling coming back again.
I was looking through colleges earlier and I realized that the two colleges that I really like are both Ivy Leagues. And that worried me. I have no idea what my GPA is right now and I'm scared to find out. I thought I was smart. SCRATCH THAT. I know I'm smart, but at certain times (like now, past midnight still trying to do work) it's not apparent even to me. So in summary, my vacations are always good then bad. Fun, then I beat myself up for not doing work earlier.
And The Script is on the radio now. On Kiss 108. I love that band! But if Kiss ruins it by overplaying them, I think I'm gonna hafta beat someone up.
Ugh. Well, I better get reading. Before my dad comes home from work and adds more days to my "punishment". Before my Grandma's 82nd birthday party tomorrow (thanks mom for not telling me it was gonna be at our house). Before I have a mental breakdown. Before I get off topic and start thinking about Goofy. Before I really feel the effects of a heavy heart. Before I go eat some cold pizza in the kitchen... *NOM NOM NOM*
Too late... :)
Monday, February 15, 2010
Untitled: Reflections, Part II
Selflessness.
We need more of it in the world... or do we?
I was going to write about my Twinn and how I want to be more like her, selfless. But now that I think about it, I don't. When I think of the word selfless, I think of giving yourself up to others, all of yourself (not sexually! lol). You always lay your heart on the line when you do things for others. And in a utopia, that would be fine, but this is the real world we're living in. In the real world, people hurt and abuse others. In the real world, people have trust issues. In the real world, people are paranoid. When a person does a selfless act, others might think that there are hidden motives behind it. And sometimes there will be.
But with Twinn, her kindness comes from her heart. It's practically linked directly to it. And she tries to do good and make others smile, but every once in a while someone comes along and breaks her heart. And she hurts and she cries. And when she hurts, I hurt. I even cried today. Funny how one person can make me bawl my eyes out, but a movie like The Notebook can only get me misty eyed haha.
So that's why I don't think being selfless is very useful anymore. Instead, I'll try being more caring. I don't think the world's ready for selfless people yet. For now, I think being caring is good enough. Care for others with all your heart, with good intentions, but care for yourself also. Because when you get hurt, other people hurt. Maybe that'll stop the cycle...
Yeah, so that's what I'm changing my New Years resolution to. I forget what it was before, but now I'm changing it to "be more caring."
I think I'm doing a good job. Being friends with people like Ninja and Twinn, it definitely rubs off lol. Ninja told me earlier that both he and Twinn find me selfless. I don't see why. I'm nothing compared to them. Ninja, he helps people whenever he can. Whether it's helping them out with Chemistry or practicing volleyball with them, he adds more to his workload for others. And I truly admire him for that. Not so much for him being busy all the time, but for helping others any way he can. Not only has he helped me understand classwork a few times, but he went out of his way to get Youtube videos to make sure I got it. He does so much...
I will repay him somehow one of these days. I just constantly try to keep him in my mind. Watching, hoping that I'll be able to help him out in some way, big or small. He's a good person, a great person! He just needs to be reminded sometimes haha :)
And Twinn. She's the most selfless person I know. Which in fact, is quite refreshing in the modern day world. I really admire her. She inspires me to become a better person (and Ninja too). I've been reading her blogs. And she cares way too much. Yes, it's wonderful to do things out of your heart for others, but like I said, she gets hurt. She thinks she hurts other people and she beats herself up about it. Twinn, there's nothing wrong with you! It's other people. It's the world lol. I feel like I should hide you away from the world, but we all need to grow up sooner or later. You have to face the world. You need to learn on your own that some things are worth worrying about and others aren't. Like me! lol. I know you said that I'm your first priority. But you should know that my mood swings are short. Like that app on Facebook, My Personality. I took a test and they said, "Based on your responses, you come across as someone who is rarely bothered by things, and when they do get you down the feeling does not persist for very long." So there's no need to worry about me! The whole point of me making a blog was to express my feelings. To rant and vent when I needed to. But now that I have three of my friends following my blog, I guess I should filter what I say because it worries people haha. Just know that if I'm sad or confused, it won't last long!
I love my Twinn so much... (JIFLY!!!!!!! no amount of exclamation points can show how much I love you lol) It hurts me to know she's hurting. And that goes both ways haha. There's that twin mentality. It's a wonder how so much love can be packed into such a little girl. It just goes to show you that there are wonderful things to be found in this world. I'm so lucky to have met her. She means so much to me, you've got no idea.
So where was I? Oh right. Being more caring. I'm going to put my whole heart in things I do. Which I sort of already do... but I'm starting it again with more fervor lol. It links to one of my goals in life too. I want to brighten someone's day each and every day. I'm sure being more caring would brighten more than one person's day :) Who knows?
I always want to help. And to me, the simplest way of helping someone is by making them smile. I try to put a smile on all my friends faces. And I sort of accomplished my goal with Vtang. She's said that I really helped her get over... I don't see how or why, but it's nice to know. She's happier now :)
But she was right. I shouldn't have read the rest of her blog. I realize that my friends and I use these blogs like journals and diaries. We put all our emotions and thoughts out there for everyone to see. And we hurt each other. The truth hurts. And I want to tell Vtang the truth, but I'd rather not hurt her. She's already happy. Apparently I'm the cause of that. So I don't want to be the end of it either. But then again. If it's not only hurting me, if it's affecting others too, should I say something? No. I won't. I can't. One person's already been hurt. No point in hurting another. I've explained to the other affected person, the best I can. In the end, Ninja's right. We shouldn't be reading each others' minds. We were never meant to.
But sometimes we have to get hurt to learn...
I will say one thing though. Vtang, you're definitely not unlikeable! You contradicted yourself lol. If "multiple guys have confessed that they like you and asked you out or had your friends hint to you that they liked you and asked you out," that proves that guys do like you like that! ;)
Last but not least, fiancee. She definitely means a lot to me. I don't know how it happened, how we came to be friends, but we are... and she's hurting. And like I said, it hurts me to know a friend is hurting. Out of everyone, it's with her I try my hardest. I try to cheer her up, to help her get through it all. But again, like I said, I feel like I'm not making a difference. I hope I am. She said that she's sort of afraid that when she does feel like healing, I'll already be gone. I'm not going anywhere. Though I shouldn't make promises I can't keep. Look what happened with me and my bestie...
But I'm here now with new restored faith. And I truly believe that if I want something bad enough, I'll get it. I will help you through you're depression and you will love yourself if it's the last thing I do. (You too Twinn!!) I care about you, that's why I helped you do your turnitin rather than doing mine. You deserve a whole lot more than what you get. Because I know deep down inside what's waiting to come out, what kind of person you can be. You just need help getting there. That's what I'm here for.
So let's get things straight. Just to sum it up, we all need two things: to care for others (and act on it), and to love ourselves -- girls especially. Girls (you know who you are), you need to love yourselves. Because when you love yourselves, you can build confidence, when you have confidence, you can do anything. Believe in yourselves, you can make a difference (you've definitely already made a difference in my life).
I mean, you say that people should love others for all of who they are, the good and the bad, but what about yourself? Yes, it's easy to find faults in yourself, but make sure you can find good things too! Like, yes, I hate my big nose and my big feet and my big hands and my OCD and my controlfreak-ness, but I love my lips and my height (sometimes) and my heart, for loving and caring so much. My heart, it's going out to all my friends. But especially the followers of my blog. You guys should know... I'm here. I care. I love you.
Now love yourselves :)
We need more of it in the world... or do we?
I was going to write about my Twinn and how I want to be more like her, selfless. But now that I think about it, I don't. When I think of the word selfless, I think of giving yourself up to others, all of yourself (not sexually! lol). You always lay your heart on the line when you do things for others. And in a utopia, that would be fine, but this is the real world we're living in. In the real world, people hurt and abuse others. In the real world, people have trust issues. In the real world, people are paranoid. When a person does a selfless act, others might think that there are hidden motives behind it. And sometimes there will be.
But with Twinn, her kindness comes from her heart. It's practically linked directly to it. And she tries to do good and make others smile, but every once in a while someone comes along and breaks her heart. And she hurts and she cries. And when she hurts, I hurt. I even cried today. Funny how one person can make me bawl my eyes out, but a movie like The Notebook can only get me misty eyed haha.
So that's why I don't think being selfless is very useful anymore. Instead, I'll try being more caring. I don't think the world's ready for selfless people yet. For now, I think being caring is good enough. Care for others with all your heart, with good intentions, but care for yourself also. Because when you get hurt, other people hurt. Maybe that'll stop the cycle...
Yeah, so that's what I'm changing my New Years resolution to. I forget what it was before, but now I'm changing it to "be more caring."
I think I'm doing a good job. Being friends with people like Ninja and Twinn, it definitely rubs off lol. Ninja told me earlier that both he and Twinn find me selfless. I don't see why. I'm nothing compared to them. Ninja, he helps people whenever he can. Whether it's helping them out with Chemistry or practicing volleyball with them, he adds more to his workload for others. And I truly admire him for that. Not so much for him being busy all the time, but for helping others any way he can. Not only has he helped me understand classwork a few times, but he went out of his way to get Youtube videos to make sure I got it. He does so much...
I will repay him somehow one of these days. I just constantly try to keep him in my mind. Watching, hoping that I'll be able to help him out in some way, big or small. He's a good person, a great person! He just needs to be reminded sometimes haha :)
And Twinn. She's the most selfless person I know. Which in fact, is quite refreshing in the modern day world. I really admire her. She inspires me to become a better person (and Ninja too). I've been reading her blogs. And she cares way too much. Yes, it's wonderful to do things out of your heart for others, but like I said, she gets hurt. She thinks she hurts other people and she beats herself up about it. Twinn, there's nothing wrong with you! It's other people. It's the world lol. I feel like I should hide you away from the world, but we all need to grow up sooner or later. You have to face the world. You need to learn on your own that some things are worth worrying about and others aren't. Like me! lol. I know you said that I'm your first priority. But you should know that my mood swings are short. Like that app on Facebook, My Personality. I took a test and they said, "Based on your responses, you come across as someone who is rarely bothered by things, and when they do get you down the feeling does not persist for very long." So there's no need to worry about me! The whole point of me making a blog was to express my feelings. To rant and vent when I needed to. But now that I have three of my friends following my blog, I guess I should filter what I say because it worries people haha. Just know that if I'm sad or confused, it won't last long!
I love my Twinn so much... (JIFLY!!!!!!! no amount of exclamation points can show how much I love you lol) It hurts me to know she's hurting. And that goes both ways haha. There's that twin mentality. It's a wonder how so much love can be packed into such a little girl. It just goes to show you that there are wonderful things to be found in this world. I'm so lucky to have met her. She means so much to me, you've got no idea.
So where was I? Oh right. Being more caring. I'm going to put my whole heart in things I do. Which I sort of already do... but I'm starting it again with more fervor lol. It links to one of my goals in life too. I want to brighten someone's day each and every day. I'm sure being more caring would brighten more than one person's day :) Who knows?
I always want to help. And to me, the simplest way of helping someone is by making them smile. I try to put a smile on all my friends faces. And I sort of accomplished my goal with Vtang. She's said that I really helped her get over... I don't see how or why, but it's nice to know. She's happier now :)
But she was right. I shouldn't have read the rest of her blog. I realize that my friends and I use these blogs like journals and diaries. We put all our emotions and thoughts out there for everyone to see. And we hurt each other. The truth hurts. And I want to tell Vtang the truth, but I'd rather not hurt her. She's already happy. Apparently I'm the cause of that. So I don't want to be the end of it either. But then again. If it's not only hurting me, if it's affecting others too, should I say something? No. I won't. I can't. One person's already been hurt. No point in hurting another. I've explained to the other affected person, the best I can. In the end, Ninja's right. We shouldn't be reading each others' minds. We were never meant to.
But sometimes we have to get hurt to learn...
I will say one thing though. Vtang, you're definitely not unlikeable! You contradicted yourself lol. If "multiple guys have confessed that they like you and asked you out or had your friends hint to you that they liked you and asked you out," that proves that guys do like you like that! ;)
Last but not least, fiancee. She definitely means a lot to me. I don't know how it happened, how we came to be friends, but we are... and she's hurting. And like I said, it hurts me to know a friend is hurting. Out of everyone, it's with her I try my hardest. I try to cheer her up, to help her get through it all. But again, like I said, I feel like I'm not making a difference. I hope I am. She said that she's sort of afraid that when she does feel like healing, I'll already be gone. I'm not going anywhere. Though I shouldn't make promises I can't keep. Look what happened with me and my bestie...
But I'm here now with new restored faith. And I truly believe that if I want something bad enough, I'll get it. I will help you through you're depression and you will love yourself if it's the last thing I do. (You too Twinn!!) I care about you, that's why I helped you do your turnitin rather than doing mine. You deserve a whole lot more than what you get. Because I know deep down inside what's waiting to come out, what kind of person you can be. You just need help getting there. That's what I'm here for.
So let's get things straight. Just to sum it up, we all need two things: to care for others (and act on it), and to love ourselves -- girls especially. Girls (you know who you are), you need to love yourselves. Because when you love yourselves, you can build confidence, when you have confidence, you can do anything. Believe in yourselves, you can make a difference (you've definitely already made a difference in my life).
I mean, you say that people should love others for all of who they are, the good and the bad, but what about yourself? Yes, it's easy to find faults in yourself, but make sure you can find good things too! Like, yes, I hate my big nose and my big feet and my big hands and my OCD and my controlfreak-ness, but I love my lips and my height (sometimes) and my heart, for loving and caring so much. My heart, it's going out to all my friends. But especially the followers of my blog. You guys should know... I'm here. I care. I love you.
Now love yourselves :)
Untitled: Reflections
Something's wrong with me, but I don't know what. I'm not happy and I don't know why. Is it Goofy? Is it change?
I. Don't. Know.
But it's hurting my heart. I can feel it breaking. I can feel the tears swelling in my eyes. What's wrong with me?
Is it all my emotions finally breaking out? I said that my thoughts were gonna eat me alive, but I didn't think it would hurt this bad.
It sucks not knowing. I mean, I'm supposed to know myself the best, right? Then why can't I figure out what's going on in my own mind?
I want to talk about it, but I'm trusted to keep a secret. Not to mention I can't figure things out for myself. If I don't know, how are others supposed to help?
"Don't leave me alone with my thoughts cuz they'll eat me alive. This is gonna be a lonnnnnggggg week."
I. Don't. Know.
But it's hurting my heart. I can feel it breaking. I can feel the tears swelling in my eyes. What's wrong with me?
Is it all my emotions finally breaking out? I said that my thoughts were gonna eat me alive, but I didn't think it would hurt this bad.
It sucks not knowing. I mean, I'm supposed to know myself the best, right? Then why can't I figure out what's going on in my own mind?
I want to talk about it, but I'm trusted to keep a secret. Not to mention I can't figure things out for myself. If I don't know, how are others supposed to help?
"Don't leave me alone with my thoughts cuz they'll eat me alive. This is gonna be a lonnnnnggggg week."
Untitled: Le Week-end
My thoughts have been all over the place this morning. And like a hunter in the woods, I missed one step and my thoughts scattered away. I try to grab hold of them again, but I'm left with a vague memory of what was. So if I remember a thought, I'll quickly type it up.
I never got a chance to say... happy valentine's day all! and happy new years asians! lol Saturday I finally got that mani/pedi with my mom. I didn't get my eyebrows done, but that's okay. I sorta like them the way they are anyway. I absolutely love the color I chose. It's an awesome orangey-pink :)
Yesterday I went to the movies with Vtang and Splinter (Jenn). I had a lot of fun. When I gave Splinter her monkey she felt guilty lol. I don't see why. I wanted to get her something. But yea, she begged to go to Macy's to get me something. And I came home with a body frosting stencil thing kit and the words kiss me in strawberry goo on my face haha. Though the movies weren't that entertaining (Valentine's Day and Dear John), I still had fun. I realized that Splinter has a slightly dirty mind. Hmmmmm lol.
The funniest part of Valentine's Day was of the Taylors. And I didn't cry to Dear John. I don't get it. Sawah told me she bawled her eyes out to that movie. But then again, maybe it's just me. The only movie I've ever cried to was A Walk to Remember. And that was only a few tears. I didn't cry to The Notebook either thought I was close. I mean, it's a movie. It's not real. But I know it's supposed to move me.
Sometimes I feel like a robot. My emotions are somewhere deep down inside, I just don't know how to let them out. Or I don't want to...
Anyway, yesterday morning my mom gave me some Lindt chocolate. Dark chocolate... with a touch of sea salt. Ugh. It was okay at first, but then I started tasting little grains of salt *bleck* Salt doesn't belong in chocolate (unless you're making brownies). I don't care what kind of salt it is... smh.
Hahaha. All yesterday I kept forgetting that it was Valentine's Day. I guess I was having too much fun with my friends :)
I never got a chance to say... happy valentine's day all! and happy new years asians! lol Saturday I finally got that mani/pedi with my mom. I didn't get my eyebrows done, but that's okay. I sorta like them the way they are anyway. I absolutely love the color I chose. It's an awesome orangey-pink :)
Yesterday I went to the movies with Vtang and Splinter (Jenn). I had a lot of fun. When I gave Splinter her monkey she felt guilty lol. I don't see why. I wanted to get her something. But yea, she begged to go to Macy's to get me something. And I came home with a body frosting stencil thing kit and the words kiss me in strawberry goo on my face haha. Though the movies weren't that entertaining (Valentine's Day and Dear John), I still had fun. I realized that Splinter has a slightly dirty mind. Hmmmmm lol.
The funniest part of Valentine's Day was of the Taylors. And I didn't cry to Dear John. I don't get it. Sawah told me she bawled her eyes out to that movie. But then again, maybe it's just me. The only movie I've ever cried to was A Walk to Remember. And that was only a few tears. I didn't cry to The Notebook either thought I was close. I mean, it's a movie. It's not real. But I know it's supposed to move me.
Sometimes I feel like a robot. My emotions are somewhere deep down inside, I just don't know how to let them out. Or I don't want to...
Anyway, yesterday morning my mom gave me some Lindt chocolate. Dark chocolate... with a touch of sea salt. Ugh. It was okay at first, but then I started tasting little grains of salt *bleck* Salt doesn't belong in chocolate (unless you're making brownies). I don't care what kind of salt it is... smh.
Hahaha. All yesterday I kept forgetting that it was Valentine's Day. I guess I was having too much fun with my friends :)
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Thinking Thinking...
These thoughts are going to eat me alive.
Last night I went to bed on time (according to my punishment), but my dad wasn't even here to make sure that I was following the rules. That really pisses me off. But that's not what I wanted to talk about. I wanted to say that last night fiancee and I talked on the phone for an hour lol. Good times :)<3
And I did get to paint my nails like I wanted.
But yea. This morning I woke up and the first thing I thought of was what I learned yesterday... and then I thought about how I fell asleep with my iPod on (it was still on playing music haha). And then I went downstairs to make pancakes like I told fiancee I would (they taste good, but now I'm not in the mood for them. they upset my stomach... and we still have tons of batter left!). All while I was making them, I kept thinking about... it.
I've come to the decision that I really don't know how I feel about it. I definitely don't not approve like someone thought I would. I mean, yea. It's been obvious way before yesterday that they belong together.
Hmmm. It sort of reminds me of freshman year. I was great friends with her, but then he came along. And he was cool, but it was awkward. And overtime I hung out with her less. But in a way it's completely different. Because now I'm great friends with both of them.
Like I wrote in my status, "yes, a promise is a promise." I promise things won't change. I mean, it's not like I want them to! :)
But I can't help how I feel. And you guys shouldn't worry about me! You belong together, don't let me hold you back. Third wheel or not, I'm still friends with you! You guys are too important to me. I don't want to lose you either :)
Things
won't
change
...will they?
Just like with Goofy, only time will tell.
These thoughts are going to eat me alive.
Last night I went to bed on time (according to my punishment), but my dad wasn't even here to make sure that I was following the rules. That really pisses me off. But that's not what I wanted to talk about. I wanted to say that last night fiancee and I talked on the phone for an hour lol. Good times :)<3
And I did get to paint my nails like I wanted.
But yea. This morning I woke up and the first thing I thought of was what I learned yesterday... and then I thought about how I fell asleep with my iPod on (it was still on playing music haha). And then I went downstairs to make pancakes like I told fiancee I would (they taste good, but now I'm not in the mood for them. they upset my stomach... and we still have tons of batter left!). All while I was making them, I kept thinking about... it.
I've come to the decision that I really don't know how I feel about it. I definitely don't not approve like someone thought I would. I mean, yea. It's been obvious way before yesterday that they belong together.
Hmmm. It sort of reminds me of freshman year. I was great friends with her, but then he came along. And he was cool, but it was awkward. And overtime I hung out with her less. But in a way it's completely different. Because now I'm great friends with both of them.
Like I wrote in my status, "yes, a promise is a promise." I promise things won't change. I mean, it's not like I want them to! :)
But I can't help how I feel. And you guys shouldn't worry about me! You belong together, don't let me hold you back. Third wheel or not, I'm still friends with you! You guys are too important to me. I don't want to lose you either :)
Things
won't
change
...will they?
Just like with Goofy, only time will tell.
These thoughts are going to eat me alive.
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