Final Days

Everything is complete bullshit. My family can't trust me and we're fighting every night. All of this is happening less than a week before I move onto campus too.. I hate for things to end so badly now. Not only that but it finally feels like my best friend is a stranger. I say finally because I was told that it would happen sooner or later. I guess later has arrived. So while I'm trying to say goodbye-for-now's to my friends, the relationships with the most important people in my life are sort of just.. disintegrating.
Also, the other day I finally got to tell her my thoughts. I felt a little bad about saying certain things but the feeling I got afterward overshadowed all that. I was so proud of myself for speaking my mind. I felt like a brand new person. It didn't matter that she wouldn't really listen to what I was saying, that she would stay with him, or that he would essentially take my role of best friend in her life, I was glad that I was able to voice my thoughts. And you know what? I'm almost okay with it now. I don't care anymore. I just want to move on and get away from all this crap. "Fuck everyone and fuck everything..." (It's a Jon Lajoie song lol. It's one of the very few things that makes me smile these days.)

I'll be there to help her when the time's right.

For now I'll just have to get through these final days as best as I can.

Day 06

A hobby you have.


BAKING!

I sorta kinda love it :)

Day 05

A picture of somewhere you’ve been to.

I've been here. At one of the most beautiful beaches I've ever been to in my family's amazing country Haiti. I'll never forget it.

Day 04

List 15 songs that represent your life’s soundtrack.

Jeez. 15? Really? I can barely think of 5... sigh.

1. Under Control -- Parachute
2. Fallin' For You -- Colbie Caillat
3. Move Along -- The All-American Rejects
4. Be Mine! -- Robyn
   
5. All You Need Is Love -- The Beatles (Yes, at this point I'm just going through my iTunes lol)
6. I Gotta Feeling -- Black Eyed Peas
7. Dancing On My Own -- Robyn
   
8. Maps -- Yeah Yeah Yeahs
   
9. I Want You To Want Me -- Cheap Trick
10. Till I Get There -- Lupe Fiasco
11. I'm Coming Out -- Diana Ross
12. Float On -- Modest Mouse
    
13. Are We All Forgotten -- Paper Route
    
14. Wish -- Paper Route
15. Two Birds -- Regina Spektor
16. Dream On -- Robyn (just because♥)

Okay. So I guess it really wasn't that hard lol. I couldn't even fit all of them on my list haha.

Day 03

A habit that you wish you didn’t have.

I'm really organized.. almost to a point where I get very agitated if someone touches something of mine and they don't put it back the same way they found it. Some might call it OCD lol. I should probably work on that :\

Day 02

A picture of something you cannot live without.

Family. I couldn't survive without them. No matter how much they get on my nerves, how many times they make me cry, I wouldn't be anywhere if it weren't for them.