Saturday, February 13, 2010

Thinking Thinking...

These thoughts are going to eat me alive.

Last night I went to bed on time (according to my punishment), but my dad wasn't even here to make sure that I was following the rules. That really pisses me off. But that's not what I wanted to talk about. I wanted to say that last night fiancee and I talked on the phone for an hour lol. Good times :)<3
And I did get to paint my nails like I wanted.

But yea. This morning I woke up and the first thing I thought of was what I learned yesterday... and then I thought about how I fell asleep with my iPod on (it was still on playing music haha). And then I went downstairs to make pancakes like I told fiancee I would (they taste good, but now I'm not in the mood for them. they upset my stomach... and we still have tons of batter left!). All while I was making them, I kept thinking about... it.
I've come to the decision that I really don't know how I feel about it. I definitely don't not approve like someone thought I would. I mean, yea. It's been obvious way before yesterday that they belong together.
Hmmm. It sort of reminds me of freshman year. I was great friends with her, but then he came along. And he was cool, but it was awkward. And overtime I hung out with her less. But in a way it's completely different. Because now I'm great friends with both of them.

Like I wrote in my status, "yes, a promise is a promise." I promise things won't change. I mean, it's not like I want them to! :)
But I can't help how I feel. And you guys shouldn't worry about me! You belong together, don't let me hold you back. Third wheel or not, I'm still friends with you! You guys are too important to me. I don't want to lose you either :)

Things
won't
change
...will they?

Just like with Goofy, only time will tell.

These thoughts are going to eat me alive.

1 comment:

  1. =( You're my first priority twinn! If you're sad then... then... I just wouldn't know what to do... =\

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