Things I Love #3

I love warm, fresh smelling clothes straight from the dryer.

The Backstreet Boys - Don't Want You Back

I'm no longer confused. I've learned. I want to change.
I'm looking forward now. Towards my future of better grades, better relationships, and being more open. I look towards my future and... I don't see you anywhere in it. I don't want to think about you or what we were or what happened or what it all meant. I'm done. I've been done with you for a while, you probably didn't know.
Still, thanks. And goodbye.

LOVE this outfit...

Kolorowa dusza: Summertime sadness: Już od dłuższego czasu chciałam mieć w szafie a'la lity, ale jakoś zawsze była wymówka aby kupić inne buty. Tym razem już się nie wykręciłam...

Who doesn't love a man in a nice suit?

Especially if that man happens to be the beautiful Joseph Gordon-Levitt... *swoon*

Janet Jackson - Rock With U

She really is an amazing dancer..

Sue Dickinson

Watercolor Artist 4

I love her paintings. They're so lifelike! They make me feel like I'm actually somewhere in the Sahara watching these animals. Or better yet - each painting captures the individual animal in a moment of absolute beauty. This is talent.

Miss Grace

Charge

Good Morning, World!

Elephant Herd

Formidable Rival

All paintings by Sue Dickinson.

The Temper Trap - Tembling Hands

The kids don't stand a chance.

[B.o.B. - The Kids ft. Janelle Monae]

I really am just "waiting for the end to come" [Linkin Park].
The world is so fucked. And I feel like I have nothing to live for, like my life is going nowhere. I'll go to school and hang out with my friends and have a couple good times and a couple bad times and maybe eventually get a degree then get a job I maybe will sorta kinda like then move out then live out the rest of my days... waiting for the end to come. I don't really see the point. I've experienced life - pain, happiness, pride, pity, beauty, growth, sickness, love, anger, doubt - all the good stuff, and the bad stuff. What else can there be? It's a constant cycle where too many people get hurt. And you may be thinking, "but you haven't experienced everything! you've yet to see the world, you've yet to fall in love!" But wherever I go there will be beauty and there will be even more pain and sadness and heartbreak and despair. And honestly, I'm starting to think that there's no one out there for me. I was born a virgin to all things sexual about love and I'll probably die that way too (more or less).
I'm just tired of it all. Most of the kids nowadays have no sense of self. They're cold and rude and throw sex around like it's meaningless. The generations are just getting more and more hard. It's like they're born into this bleak world knowing those moments of fake happiness in drunken dance and partying and hookups is all they have to look forward to.

I don't know why I thought of this or why I wrote this all here, but I'm sorry if I ruined your day. Maybe I was just hoping that someone else felt the same way.

I have enough common sense to know that someone out there does, that I'm not alone. I just can't shake the feeling that I am.

So... apparently texting "hi" works lol.

Why is buying a single song on iTunes so expensive? What ever happened to those 99 cent songs? Sigh. Moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoney..... T_T

This I Believe

One day in December 2010, my friend Thomas posted a note on Facebook. It was a list of things he believed in. He'd asked other people to make lists too and post them. I took on that challenge. Here is my list.

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When I was asked to make a list about what I believe in, I honestly had no idea what to put. I didn't know what I believed in but after some intense thinking in Mr. Dever's History class, I came up with something. Here's my list to share with you. I'm curious to see what you and other people believe in too. Make one for yourself and share it with your friends. Your take on this note can be as serious or as funny as you decide to make it.

I believe (in)...

• acceptance
• the power of love
• friendship
• working hard to achieve your goals
• making your own dreams come true (no birthday candles, shooting stars, 11:11, or eyelashes involved)
• taking risks, stepping outside your comfort zone sometimes
• there's always a bright side; things will get better
• doing things for others
• hugs
• the power of music
• my body is a temple
• myself
• diversity
• speaking your mind
• laughter
• taking time to appreciate the little things
• having fun with whatever you do
• natural beauty
• not caring what people think; breaking/bending society's rules
• honesty
• staying faithful
• being open minded
• "reality TV" is garbage
• teachers deserve much more than what they get for what they do (especially the good ones that actually teach you stuff)
• suicide is not an answer
• everything happens for a reason
• interracial relationships
• that if people cared and loved a little more, the world would be a much better place

and also I believe that "patience is a minor form of despair, disguised as a virtue."
Don't wait for a magic fairy, make things happen yourself.

Things I Love #2

I love getting lost in a good book.

Linkin Park - Blackout

I've been listening to LP's album A Thousand Suns nonstop since I bought it the other day. I love it. I miss hearing intense songs like these. All the same pop and dance songs on the radio get kinda old.


Other great songs from this album: When They Come For Me, Robot Boy, Waiting For The End, The Catalyst.

Orange&Jean

My outfit today, even though I was at work pretty much all day...

Orange tank top, grey cotton waist-high skirt (H&M), cropped Jean jacket.

How do I go about talking to someone I'm interested in?

How do I go about talking to someone I'm interested in after I don't have any business with them anymore? Just text "hi"? No, that can't be it. That's too simple. And that's weird.

DAMMIT, WHY AM I SO AWKWARD?!

Big Girls Don't Cry Cover

Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie

I was in a song-song mood tonight... Don't mind my odd facial expressions. Enjoy.

Brunch, Beach, & Bowling

That's what I did today. I met up with my good friend Rose and we caught up on each others' lives. So much I missed... Time does wonders, I swear. We flipped through pages filled with memories. We ate a greasy, yet absolutely delightful brunch at McKenna's Cafe in Dorchester. I'd definitely go there again. My meal was heavenly. We laid in the sun at Malibu Beach. We saw a middle-aged hipster with a bear chest wearing a fedora. We talked until we turned around and the tide was suddenly at our toes. We reminisced. It felt good. Too bad she's now all the way in Pennsylvania. She left for school tonight. I'll miss her hugs and quirky personality. Until Winter...
 Then I met up with my cousins to go bowling. We ate more greasy food. I whooped their butts :) We took pictures in the photo booth (it's tradition). Then we went to the arcade and got tattoos and Tootsie Frooties with tickets some random guy kept giving away to my cousin. Day well spent.
I think most of my apprehension towards going back to school stems from me possibly missing days like this, spent with family and old friends... That and my strong aversion to Framingham. And doubts whether I'll succeed or not this semester. That's all. I just have to leap into it. Forget all my worries and just do what I do... hopefully.

There was a playground at that beach so I got to play on the swings! n_n

It was my idea for us to get matching tattoos. Don't we look tough now? That's a true "Gang" right there lol.

Tell me why I just saw a lone turkey grazing in the cemetery as I was waiting for the bus to go to work... O_O

Autumn is Coming, Autumn is Coming!

It Finally Bloomed Part II!

The other flower I'd planted at the start of the summer bloomed today! It towers over the other one at about 15 inches! And unlike the marigold that bloomed earlier, this one (a zinnia I believe) still has more petals to show. And there are like 4 other buds growing right alongside it. I'm proud of my plants :)

When I find myself getting sad about the past...

All I have to do is remember that I'm better off without you :)

Peace out, mothafuckaaaaaaa!!! LOL

The Past Week Or So

I've been around. Just dealing with shit, working, being photographed, wandering Boston, and thinking - as always.

School. Starting last Monday I had a scare that I'd be kicked out of school due to an unpaid $9,000 bill. I called them and it turns out that I didn't turn in my FAFSA. So after a lot of calls, worrying, and trouble, I filled it out, turned it in, got my financial aid (I actually ened up overpaying so I'm waiting for that $500 refund check -_-), and am assured a seat in each of my pre-registered classes and a spot in my residence hall and overall at the school. It was all very stressful...
 I also met and had lunch with my new roommate Nikera. She seems really cool. Reminds me a lot of my good friend Lexy actually... Except she's a freshman. That's fine I guess. I can help her out since I'm more familiarized with the school. I want to give her a good first year experience, the one that I never had. Hehehe... >:) lol jk. But fun fact: she lives like 10 minutes away from me over in Dorchester. How cool is that? We can like carpool and whatnot.

All that crap I went through with financial aid only solidified my hatred towards FSU. I'm really starting to think that Framingham State is the absolute worst school in the US. And that hatred is making me hate everything that comes from Framingham including the classes I took there, the time I spent there, even the people I met there. It's that bad. Hopefully I'll get over this feeling. A little time spent with my friends should heal this.

School starts up really soon. I'm gonna be moving even sooner :/ I haven't even finished my summer list. I still need to go supplies and clothing and shoe shopping. And order books. And switch out of one class. Like I said, I hope I feel better about all of this once I get moved in and get settled down.

Work. Staples has been my best job yet. I really like my boss. He's going to talk to the manager at the Framingham store and hopefully set me up with a job over there during the school year. I could use the extra cash. For books. And for that other stuff I wanted to get (CD's, books, posters, etc.). For now though, I need to learn how to budget. I'm horrible with saving..

YMS. We had a photoshoot on Sunday. At Georges Island. Military themed. Though our clothes didn't exactly fit the theme, I think it was still a success. A great experience for the newer members and a great opportunity for bonding. We had to take a ferry to get there and it was my first time on a boat actually. As a member told me, YMS "popped my boat cherry" lol. I took quite a few pictures with my crappy cell. And the photographer, who is friends with one of the directors, was really cool. And cute, I must add haha. Maybe this attraction stemmed from the fact that he took pictures of me all day long adding comments such as "wow, that looks great". It's sorta sexy, even if he was just talking about the picture as a whole and not me individually. (Side note: I would like my boyfriend to be somewhat artsy.)
I actually achieved getting his number though! That night I forgot my wallet in his car so I spent the next three days trying to get a hold of him and my stuff back. It was still fun texting him though :) *happy sigh* AND I successfully got him on that blog of pictures of Asians taking pictures of food! Lmaooooo. Mission Accomplished.

Today. I went out with Lexy and met up with Tiff and Nancy and Winnie and Alexandria. It was all pizza and pictures and cupcakes and fountains and pictures and Newbury and fun. It's sad that we're all going away to school so soon. I'll miss days like today, I'll miss spending time with my old friends.

Speaking of, I was looking at my Facebook again and I just happen to notice Ashley P's profile. She's changed quite a bit... So much so that I have no idea who she is anymore. I think it's time for another cleanup of all my friends. If I barely talked to you in high school and I am shocked to find out that you got a face piercing sometime in the last year since we graduated, I don't know you and I would no longer like to be your friend on Facebook. Then again, if I actually deleted all those people I'd be left with maybe 100 friends. And for some reason having an average number of friends online (around 300) is essential to my social media life. So maybe it's time to just take another break from that whole scene. That way I won't have to deal with friends who aren't really friends and advertisements and all that other nonsense, and just spend time with my actual friends in real life. Sounds good, right? Right. Peace out, Facebook.

Now, if you've actually sat there and read all those ramblings about my current and fairly boring life, I think you deserve a treat. In my world that treat entails a rest for your eyes in the form of pictures from Georges Island and other random stuff. Enjoy!

My "boat cherry" being popped.

On our way back to Boston. Great view, doncha think?

Oh, and I made Lemon Squares for the first time Saturday night/Sunday morning. They taste good!

A picture summary of my day. Georgetown cupcakes (best chocolate cupcake and frosting I've tried yet), a Linkin Park CD from Newbury Comics, one of the world's largest gumballs from Robin's candy store (I will be sure to post a video of me attempting to eat and blow a bubble with it later!), we played my new game Roll, Domo, Roll - a gift from a friend in YMS, I got my wallet back, I received my own special pair of chopsticks as a gift from Nancy (how nice!), and a book from the stack I borrowed from the library that I'm still trying to finish.

And a random picture of me from today...
You're still here reading? Go away! Get off the computer and go do something good for your health! Bye.